First off, this post is graphic so skip it if you've got a weak stomach. Just pray for me and the baby.
Secondly, everything is fine.
However, last night I had a pregnancy scare and went to the ER. I had a whoosh of dark red blood with a clot about the size of my thumb nail accompanied by cramping. A big no-no in pregnancy. During the 5 hours I spent in the ER, they ran urine and blood tests, did a pelvic exam and an ultrasound and the baby (yep, only one =) looked fine and I was fine, so they sent me home. They couldn't find a cause for it, and said sometimes this just happens. Sometimes this can result in a miscarriage and sometimes this can result in a full term live birth. There's no way to tell at this point, there are no guarantees either way, but as of last night, everything looked great, so that is good news.
It all started at 5:30pm and I didn't see the ultrasound - and therefore know everything was okay - until 11:30pm. A very stressful, emotional roller-coaster of 6 hours, to say the least. But during that time, I had plenty of time to think and yes, worry and cry, but also pray and receive strength and comfort from God. So I ask that you would all please pray that 1.) my pregnancy will continue without any problems or complications, 2.) that we will be filled with peace, strength, and comfort during the duration of my pregnancy, and 3.) that God's will be done.
As a side note, it was so amazing to see our little baby after all of that worry and fear. It is still too early to know the sex, as I am only 12 weeks today (we won't find out until I'm 20 weeks, and that's if the baby cooperates). But that little one was so active! It was moving around and doing all kinds of flips and wiggling it's little legs and rubbing it's head with it's arms, and I could actually see it's little heart beating away at 157 bpm...just so beautiful. We had heard the heartbeat 2 weeks ago (it was 160 bpm then, so everything's still the same) and I felt it move 3 days before that. (It's very early to feel that, but it was the same way with Kathy. We heard the heartbeat and then on the ride home from the Dr.'s office I felt her move. =)
Also, I am so thankful to have the Johnson's close to us. Thank God for such good friends! I dropped Kathy off at Tracy's since it was her bed time, and she spent the night there. (First overnight away from Mommy!! Broke my heart more than hers. =) It was such a relief to know that she was in good hands and I had nothing to worry about as far as she was concerned. I don't know how I would've handled 5 hours in an ER room with her...so glad I don't have to know how that would've gone down. =)
After everything last night I was just struck with such thankfulness. Such appreciation for my sweet Kathy and for the baby growing inside me. Such respect for Joe and for how his hard work and sacrifices over the years have provided me with a great life and free health care! Not even having to give the ER costs a second thought was a luxury I realized not many people have. All I had to worry about was me and my baby, not how the heck are we gonna pay for all of this??! That in itself was such a gift. I was reminded not to take anything for granted and to really appreciate everything you have right now, right in this very moment. Because none of us are guaranteed tomorrow. So remember to count your blessings today. And please pray that we get to keep all of ours.
xoxox
